We'd just been on a 3 mile hike through the woods. Approaching the car I got my keys to unlock I saw the dogs across the road but we were a good 20m away, I thought it was ok, she's seen dogs off the lead across this road before, she was well trained around roads, but it wasn't. Her instinct kicked in and she ran into the path of a car. The wheel went over her, it was a horrible death but quick, she only lasted a couple of minutes. I could have just put my hand down just in case but I didn't and she's dead. I will not forgive myself for this, I made the promise so many times to her that was she was safe now after her horrible start in life and I let her down. I loved her so much and no one ever loves you like your dog, the last 5 years hasn't been the best but I had Sophie who was always unstinting in her affection and love for me. She was my monkey moo, buggerlugs, stinky butt (she wasn't stinky it just stuck after she farted the one time I ever knew she did). The pain is indescribable, please don't make the mistake I did, when there's a road and cars don't take the risk. So many alternates going through my head, 2 seconds and the dogs would have gone that car would have gone, I would have had a hand free, 2 seconds. She was only 6 1/2.
We buried her in my Dad's garden, she looked so peaceful like she was sleeping. I'm so sorry Monkey. I loved you so so much and should have done better.
This is the last photo I took, I was working in my bedroom that day as my spare room was a tip and I had a video call. She spotted something out of the window. 4th June. I see her round the house but she's not really there, I go to the bathroom alone now, When I return home I expect to see her at the window, I don't have a reason to go out 4 times a day, her beds, bowls, toys, hair, are everywhere. She loved butt scrats and belly rubs, she didn't trust people easily but when she did she really loved and appreciated you. She barked and barked when someone dared come to the door. Time and patience led to many local human and doggy friends. Very good natured didn't mind being woken up, never grumpy, never chewed or ate anything she shouldn't, or messed in the house. She was the best little dog.
you were just very unlucky. Grief is the price of loving. Rest well Sophie.
